Firework

Someone sent me “firework” by Katy Perry last week and I have for the first time in my life listen to the lyrics. It helped me out a lot at the moment. 

The last couple weeks have been extremely exhaustive for me. I haven’t had a minute off, my mind is all over the place, anxiety is trying to take over. Panic is poking me during the day and sleep has gone for Hollidays at night and comes back in the morning (how funny!). 

Everything is delayed (if you take in consideration the time that I wanted things to be finished), and the year is passing by like in a blink of eyes. Having in mind there is nothing that I can do right now, cause all I could do has already been done. I decided to surrender! I came home yesterday and I’ll be here until Monday doing absolutely nothing. 

A lot of decisions to take, a lot of projects to finish, lots os talks to have with people, lots of feelings to catch up, lots of things for me to let go, and I am in a mood of doing none of those things this weekend. 

Thanks God I have the people I have around me helping me out.

 Metin looked at me these days and almost angry at my tired face questioned me: “Why you never stop working Ylie?” And my answer was simple:

 “-Because I want to stop  working one day!”. I work my ass off today, because I want to stop working when I’m 40. 

I made a list so I don’t forget to thank (the entire army), anyone when the days comes back to “normal”. 

I would be absolute nobody without all of them. Has been like that in the past, and specially now. 

I still have 2 more weeks until Wunder is open and the submission of my 2021 projects and the calendar year to my business partners are approved. 

After that, I suppose I will be way more relaxed. Finally! Wunder is becoming bigger than 2020 was ready for. I rather do the growing now than in 2021. But it has consumed every single drop of my energy. And I wasn’t counting on that. 

If you’re feeling like me. If your mind is also all over the place and you don’t know what to think, what to do next or how to be more patience than what you have already been until now, welcome to the club. Grab a chair and have a seat... there are many of us here in this class! 

I hope we will all have better days soon. For now, if you’re unable to believe it for yourself like I was couple of weeks ago, just listen to “firework”. If you don’t believe in yourself, believe in Katy Perry. That’s what I am doing these days. Has been working out! ☝🏻