About alcohol and being happy!

It’s raining outside now. I have the door open and I hear the water falling as I can smell the fresh grass from the soccer field which was cut today. It’s such a great feeling to be here these days. I feel like I’m having a break from the outside world. And it feels so refreshing. Again! 

I’m getting used to this small and simple way of living. I’m meeting one person at a time (most of the time cause I’m not so perfect following the social distancing anymore to be honest. I did, for 40 days. Now I’m failing at it), and getting to spend time with people in a total different way then I did before. And even if it is a similar way as before it feels different. It’s like I’m getting to know everyone over again. From ground zero. 

That was a very interesting week for me if I can put this way. On Monday I’ve drank so much that I woke up under the shower at 2am and crashed totally wet on the couch with my head spinning in rounds until Tuesday evening. All started when I “House party” Jessica for a tequila shot. 

Another day, Martin and I had a kasten of Desperados and we were wearing our hearts out on our sleeves and sharing each other’s live path until 4am in the morning. I was happy to realize we share more in common than I though we ever had and I admire him so much more now!

I have seen Rebeca drinking again after so long and singing together. Anna is getting closer and becoming a part of us. And I am so glad to have the chance to become friends with her. Was also nice to see Julius again and share a beer or two, or three, or four. When your car is parked until next day at Wunder means you had fun and lost the count 😎

Mirko is an exercise of patience to share a couch with if you’re not drunk enough. First, he moves all the way towards you and second, he steals your Disney pillow at 2am without you expecting it. And by the look on his face when we woke up, he was not ashamed at all 🤪

What I have learned with him this week is that this professionalism level of drinking is something I want to achieve one day in my life 😂

I’ve seen Jessica, Bruna, Stephanie and Maria almost the entire week. We sang of course. We drank of course. I’ve met Alfonso, a very nice Italian guy who’s staying at my cousin’s place and he was also from a big help this week. 

Today, Marcel spend the afternoon and a bit of the evening and we watched the two first episodes of “Locke & Key” on Netflix. I have already finished the first season with Michael last week. He loved and I loved it so I’ve decided to watch it all over again. 

Michael by the way keeps doing what he does the best since all the craziness in the world started to make me feel like my world was falling apart. He’s making me feel safe. Putting everything back in place. Being my motivation to keep going. His phone calls and text messages are a relief anytime during the day. Like balm to an open wound. He makes me feel like I am the luckiest person on earth. Hard to explain. Today he changed his what’s app picture for a picture of a “corona cake” that he bough at the bakery. And I was wondering: -Who in the world would do that? You really need to don’t give a fuck to the universe to do things like this. And I deep breathe to the perception of the mix between freedom and cuteness that that human being is made of. So simple, and it says so much about him. And I am so glad! So, so glad! 

For the rest of the week my goal is to see Bella tomorrow and maybe Markus, and hopefully Felix cause I miss that dude a lot. We were talking on the phone and texting but I want to look at that face in person once again and hopefully soon. 

My days have been a mix of hope, peace, fun, do what I want to do, endless Hollidays and excitement. I feel like the worst have passed. In every single sense. I am so ready to keep living my 100% to everything I have the chance to live right now and in a near future. 

Can’t wait for the new adventures, the new beginnings, the new experiences, the new people, the same people, the summer, the flavors, the vibes and everything else life has planned for me to experience in the upcoming days, weeks and months. I feel like I’m again on the right path.

I have heard some people say: “- the world we know is gone, nothing will ever be the same!” And I hope so, cause my old world is gone for good and nothing is the same. Things are much solid, richer, colorful and better. Everything feels better.  And I am sure this is outside world I will find when I am back to it. 

Take care guys! Hope to see you guys and smash every single one of you in a tight hug very soon 🙌🏻